|Kevin wishes you all a happy and prosperous 2014!|
I'm not making resolutions this year because, well, I always get to about the 10th of January and decide that it's all too complicated and console myself with another bit of cake and a large whisky and ginger ale.
This year I've decided to focus on FOUR feelings that I would like to experience and basically, I will be trying to do stuff that makes me feel these sorts of ways.
What are the four words?
Serenity - well, of course, sharing my life as I do with the great Anally Retentive Tartarus, serenity is not a feeling that I experience terribly often. But I know that it's there, somewhere. I usually experience a feeling of serenity when I'm in a book shop or when there is absolutely nothing needing to be done. Or everyone that I care about is around me and not fighting with each other. That last one is about as rare as rocking horse shit btw.
Confidence - I don't really have a lot of it. You only need to read the article about the Brown Dress from my High School Christmas Dance to get the gist of why I am not terribly confident. But this year, it's all about feeling the fear and doing it anyway :-D I mean, how bad could it be?!
Well-being - this is not the same as forcing myself into anything made of lyrca nor feeling like I should give myself an aneurism trying to run up hills. This is about self care. Not being vile to myself when I slip up and eat an entire box of Dairy Milk. Getting away from the continual hum and buzz of the internet that eventually makes me irritable, itchy and squint-eyed and out into the garden. Yes, having a cup of tea outside in the 'covered bbq area AKA the car port' in the freezing rain that hits my face like a gazillion ball-bearings is better for me than mindlessly scrolling, scrolling, scrolling through the posts of facebook friends who all seem to have perfect lives and NEVER think about doing away with their other half or keeping a pain au chocolat for SO long in the bread bin that he has his own name and New year's Message to the nation.....
Adventure - oh God, do I need this in my life! I think that all my words are linked together through the idea of adventure - even serenity. I want to go to bed at night thinking 'yanno what, I couldn't have done today any better.' I want to say YES to things and not my automatic knee-jerk NO. Adventure. Even the sound of it puts my blood pressure up!
So, tell me what your resolutions are! Or if you are not doing resolutions, what three or four words will be your touchstones for 2014?
BTW - here's a smiling alien face from my ironing board :)
Also, let your eyes glaze over the fact that I'm off for my smear test soon. I really ought to have repositioned Kevin so that you were spared that detail. But 2014 is all about the ADVENTURE!